by Sue DeGregorio-Rosen, RN, CLNC, Contributing Editor
My story as a young girl,
a girl who didn’t know about life
because no one ever told or showed me,
I had to learn by myself,
to learn how to be happy,
how to be sad,
to learn it was ok
to be one or the other
or to be silent or to sing.
I had to learn to say no,
Yes, hurt so many times,
And then I had to learn to say yes
because it was the right thing to do.
I must write my story,
and it may sting to write so much
My life was filled with so much drama, and it was also filled with joy.
the story is a long tale, of hardship and regret,
of loss and trauma,
of life and death
It’s a story that includes two little boys
that I brought into a world that I knew so little about.
They are a big part of my life and my story
It’s all about survival and that’s so hard to write.
I have so many stories and there are many things
that I don’t talk about
because I don’t know how.
I do know what moved me,
I know what made me aware
learning about serenity, from the wreckage of my past
If I put it down on paper, would anybody read it?
Would anyone want to read it,
and maybe gain some awareness?
Would anyone understand?
If I were to take a good look at the implications
could they come to understand?
Could I teach someone about forgiveness
or how to love someone?
How about learning how to trust.
Twofold in nature, how to trust in oneself
by being true to our own integrity
and be willing, and to know that help is available
if we ask, and to understand that if we don’t seek help,
it may be because we don’t see it,
not that it is unavailable.
Before there’s no one left to tell,
can I write about responsible actions,
and gain focus on our lives?
Can I discuss breathing, or how to take a breath?
That deep emotions tend to make us breathe differently,
So, concentrate on your breath……
or that growth is uncomfortable
and what isn’t growing is an unshakeable law of the Universe
that says what isn’t growing is dying?
Can I write about grief?
Can I write before the leaves all fall…
and the winter snow is near?